The L Word

Coming from a broken home I struggled with what real LOVE really meant.

I had seen deep, deep hurt between people who said they "loved" each other and I had a high wall up for a long time.

However, deep inside me I wanted to be wrong. I wanted to find something different than what I had seen growing up.




I wanted the love that, in my heart, knew had to be real. Not just something I had seen in the movies or read about. I wanted the real deal.

I knew what I didn’t want in a man more than what I did want in a man.




I had what I referred to as "deal breakers".  If they did "this" it was not worth it, or if they did "that" it was over before it even started. It was really just my "wall" going up everytime.




However, for some reason, I would always end up with someone who would eventually would remind me of why I didn’t trust LOVE to begin with.

I actually had gotten to a point in my life that I was feeling like I would either have to settle for "this" or "that" or just be single forever.  I was becoming convinced LOVE was something that just plain hurt you.

I was done being hurt & done feeling what I thought Love was, so I got out of yet another failed relationship and had my mind set on being single...

...That was not God’s plan for me & I am SO grateful it wasn’t!

I still found myself praying to God about understanding what real love is & even praying for who he might have for me.




Then, he answered my prayers!

Although, it was a painful road, and to be honest, at times was self-induced. It was worth it.

The real Love "L" & I have is what I always wanted needed.

It's not perfect, in fact there are times it's just plain hard.  Everyone tells you that before you get married but you don't really understand it till you're in the thick of it yourself.


We have great days & not so great days but I love him either way. I will always be willing to improve myself & grow with him in our marriage, keeping it Christ Centered.

With God in the center of it we can overcome life’s challenges together. 


If he asked me to marry him again today, I'd still say Yes!

I do know what it’s like to think Love is just not in the cards for you, but with God, Love was already in the cards.






I just needed to play my hand, with a Christ understanding & not by my own.